If you’re reading this—

I finally decided to share this “project” with you. Back in February, I told you I was writing to you every day. But since I was being left on read, I stopped sending anything and just kept it to myself—like a journal thing.

You asked if I was writing it or if was on my phone or laptop. But this is it. This is where everything ended up. I don’t know if this helped me. I don’t know if it hurt me. I just know that I had too much to hold in. And especially now, I still do.

This isn’t about trying to change anything or expecting anything in return. It’s just me, being honest and giving you a window into everything I never stopped feeling. If you choose to read or not, then at least for a moment, you’ll be here with me again.

I haven’t uploaded every single day on here. If I see you during a day, I don’t really get the chance to write. And other days, it's repetitive and overbearing. Some days all I have to say is that I miss you and I can't stand myself. And I don't want it to seem like watered down bulls*** if I'm just repeating the same thing day to day, I don't know.

You can find days with notes in the navigation in the top right corner. Dates that show up black have an entry. Dates that are grey have nothing.

I turned off analytics on this website so I will genuinely 100% never ever know if you see this. And you have ZERO obligation to tell me or give me the satisfaction of knowing you do see this. As much as it is me writing to you, I'm also very much writing this for myself and hopefully find some sort of peace from it.