February 24

I hope you have a great day off. It looks like you’ve had a real packed weekend and probably need a break.

I’m so sore from all the slopes and MMA yesterday really f***ed me up. I should’ve got better sleep too to kind of restore my muscles but it’s OK. Going to eat well today and push through some pain to have a good day working here at home and good sessions of training at night.

I know our talk on Wednesday the 19, went very up and down. And you weren’t completely in the right space to talk. So many outside forces, sleepiness, etc. And I know you said we should probably talk when I’m back in town (or FaceTime). I obviously get that’s off the table now. I’m not sure where it would’ve gotten us. Everything I said is still valid to where my mind is at in all of these things. I AM sorry. For everything. Every bit of pain and stress. Every time you felt unloved and betrayed. And I DO wish we had another shot at things. I know your reluctance to believing things would be any different has caused such a gap. But obviously that’s been caused by me repeatedly dishonoring you and breaking your trust and not living up to your wants and needs.

I’m not sure what direction another talk would’ve taken things. But I obviously couldn’t turn down a chance of seeing you. My feelings are so heavy and I how could I not?

Again I hope you have (or had) a great day off.